Monday, January 25, 2016
Here's another confession: Before this month, I only read Deathly Hallows once! I've gone back to bits and pieces of it, but never straight through. Finales are difficult. Beloved characters die, and things get dark for Harry. A lot of this book is about shattering the illusion that Harry and about Dumbledore's goodness and might, and seeing him for what he is, and in the process, Harry has to seriously confront the fact that he is very likely going to die, and probably fail to kill Voldemort as well. Dark stuff.
I also was seriously frustrated by the fact that there is NOT ENOUGH GINNY in this book. I know she's underage, and she had to go back to Hogwarts because it's the law, but I also felt like she was constantly sidelined in the book, even at the end when she did join the fight. At this point, Ginny is so beloved that I wanted her to be as important as Ron and Hermione. And speaking of Ron, there is that dark point where he leaves and doesn't come back for pages and pages and pages and just, ugh, but once he's back, the story does get back on track. And I was very impressed with the plotting, and how everything weaved together at the very end.
The truth is, no matter how many times you read it, this book will gut you. The epilogue will not be enough. Luckily for us, we live in the age of the Internet and Pottermore and you can go read about the characters and what happens to them afterwards, but it still doesn't feel like enough. I feel vaguely tricked, like I thought I could read through this series and just feel all the happy feelings, and not the crushing sadness of finishing an amazing series and having to leave a world that I would gladly live in forever and ever. Damn it, Rowling. You got me.
I could go on and on about every line, all my favorite scenes, favorite moments, but I should cut myself off before this just gets pathetic. I'm going to go wallow a bit and re-activate my Pottermore account. Resist the urge to start the first book. Again.